Monday, March 1, 2010

soft around the edges

I've never been a consistent blogger, and I've certainly never been a particularly good writer, but I do miss this space. Even more than wanting it for myself, I feel this obligation to capture moments for posterity, for my children. We didn't do baby books. We started one for Delma but it fizzled out very quickly. With Mimi we didn't even kid ourselves. I still haven't even put together my wedding album. Ugh. Growing up, my family didn't tend to sit around the dinner table reminiscing. My children will have that, but I also want them to have some sort of record, no matter how fragmented, to look back on and fill in some blanks.

But I owe my kids more than a collection of Facebook status updates and tweets about how they drive me crazy, and whose puke/pee/leaky poop greeted me when I awoke this morning. They do more than make me do laundry every damn day (and oh, how I do long for one glorious day without laundry) and send me screaming to the welcomed, controlled chaos of my job. They're also little slices of heaven, and if I could, I'd put caramel sauce on them and eat them up with a spoon. I feel to my core the truth of the famous exclamation "We'll eat you up, we love you so!"

It's not very edgy or amusing to gush about how beautiful and amazing your children are. But I'm going to try to do that more.

3 comments:

Nancy Kahrimanis said...

I love this and your beautiful/messy little ones! Good for you seeing the silver lining!!!

I bet you would like doing a 365 project like I am doing. Everyday I take a picture (with my cell phone- easy upload) and post it to my blog. If you miss a day... ehhh no worries or double post the next day! Take a pic of the kiddos each day... sleeping, smiling, with runny noses, etc. and just revel in their act of being.

my blog: http://nsk365.blogspot.com/

a list of others: http://www.networkedblogs.com/topic/Project_365/

and I don't know where it is, but will let you know if I find it again, there is a 365 blog of a guy that takes a pic of his son every single day since his birth. The kid is like 7 and he's still going. That may be a bit much to handle, but it certainly is inspiring and gives you tons of stepping off points!

Best wishes my dear! Be well,

-Nancy

Nancy Kahrimanis said...

Oh and you can e-mail pics to blogger! Super easy!!!!

Erin said...

It is hard. I catch up in their baby books in fits & spurts, but I'm no SuperMom to be sure.

We all do the best that we can do. And you seem like a wonderful mom to me!